I went outside to take these pictures this morning as soon as I saw the sun coming up. I meant to just take a picture of the sunrise, since the long weekend threw me off and I had forgotten about this post until last night. When I got to the backyard, I saw the sunflowers.
We had them last year around the trampoline, my favorite thing about the end of summer in Kansas, but I haven’t been in the backyard in weeks and didn’t know these had grown (and grown taller than me). So I snapped a few pictures while the kids were eating their breakfasts. Or rather….not eating their breakfasts.
After that, things went downhill. I made eggs for the first time in weeks, and only one child ate them until I started yelling that it was past time for them to be done and dressed. My coffee was a sample flavor that I didn’t like very much, so I hadn’t been properly caffeinated. I had woken up to an email with changes I needed to make on something I finished last night, and then more edits on top of those edits I did at 6am before I even started my coffee, AND a reminder of a meeting I had forgotten about later this evening…on a day that I thought I wouldn’t have to leave the house.
The toddler started dancing when he was supposed to be eating his breakfast, which was cute and funny until it was time to leave and he was hiding under a blanket next to a plate of untouched eggs.
I realized as we were driving to school that even though I said yesterday afternoon that we needed to work on 2nd grade spelling words for a pre-test today, we never actually did it, and I lost it. I was mad at myself for getting distracted and forgetting all about it. I was mad at the kids for not listening to me and not remembering to do it. I wondered if it was their fault that I had so many kids that I can’t finish one thing with one of them before moving on to something else with another, or if I had coddled them so much in the last nine years that none of them feel any responsibility for anything.
As the five of us drove to school and the two of us drove home, I had all of the curse words that I refuse to say in front of the kids pounding on my skull, desperate to be let out, screamed at the sky. Eminem came on the radio, and then the Ramones, and I turned the volume higher and higher to try to drown out the yelling in my head.
Oh Mr. Sun, Sun, Mr. Golden Sun, please shine down on, please shine down on, please shine down on me.
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Ugh, it's one of those mornings, isn't it? I'm sorry it was so…. nutso.
But those sunflowers with the sun in the background – truly gorgeous!
Thanks, Alison. It was a crappy morning, but we got through it. 🙂
Love you Greta. Just so you know.
And those two photos are pure happiness.
Love, you, Jennie. 🙂 Thank you!
Oh Greta. I know these days. I hope that golden sun finds you and shines on your day, but until then, I will be screaming curse words in my head with you.
Thank you for the commiseration curse words (commiseratory?). I don't know how to spell it, but you know what I mean. 🙂
Oh those kids will drive us all bonkers (not just yours, I mean mine too!!). I love the sun coming up through the sunflowers, see I told you there was some pretty in your yard. x
Haha, yes, you did, Clare! Thank you, for relating and for the kind words. 🙂
Been. There. (This morning I WAS there.) But man, those sunflowers. Go back and take a look at the for me, wouldya? 😉
I'll gaze at them for you, Keely. 🙂
That first shot is truly beautiful. P.S. I am pretty sure I've lived a morning very similar to this. And more than one. xo
Thanks, Elaine! We all have, haven't we?
This line: "I wondered if it was their fault that I had so many kids that I can’t finish one thing with one of them before moving on to something else with another, or if I had coddled them so much in the last nine years that none of them feel any responsibility for anything." TRUE. TRUE. TRUE. I wonder about this all the time too!
Anywho, I love that first shot with the sun filtering through the sunflowers! It just screams, "Good morning!"
Thank you for understanding, Janice! And thank you for the sweet words about the picture.
I love it I would up the brightness in the second photo, adjust the levels.
Thanks, Amanda! I was trying to keep the pretty blue of the sky that was taken out of the first shot, but I don't know if it's possible to do that AND brighten the yellow of the flower.
It's tricky to do
I've had those days and most mornings will make me feel that way even though I get every one up in plenty of time to get things done and be out the door on time, we are never within my time frame. Hope the rest of the week and weekend was better!!! 🙂
Thank you, Susi! We survived and it got better. 🙂
So much gorgeous in these!!! Love the sunflowers and the sun – it's perfect shot.
I had some similar ones, but thanks to one dead laptop, I had no way to get them!! So I missed out this week 🙁
Thank you so much! Oh, but I hope you get your laptop fixed or replaced. 🙁